When I explained to my girlfriend Mandy all my frustrations yesterday, she mentioned Mercury Retrograde. Had to google this term and when I read about it, Mandy was indeed accurate in her description. When the Planet Mercury is in retrograde (a motion that makes it appear to be going backward), there’s usually much confusion. People forget little things. Delays and frustrations abound.
It all started with me calling Shangri-la Mactan to cancel the reservation we had for the Ironman Weekend. The Reservations Officer very innocently inquired why I would be canceling such a precious commodity for the weekend and I simply answered that my husband won't be competing anymore.
This incident led to a whole afternoon of tears. Uncontrollable. Everytime I would think it was over, it just started flowing again. By 6pm that day, the tears mercifully stopped and I was able to go home, have dinner with Alessi, have my one drink and relax by having a massage.
(Photo by Gerrick Suarez)
When I checked Facebook and Instagram, I noticed that my teammate posted a picture of our new uniform. I was giddy! My teammates decided to put a tribute to Reymond by placing his name on the upper right side of the uniform. I couldn't wait to get my hands on the uni! That was until Yvonne texted me otherwise.
She very carefully explained to me that the suppliers made a mistake and misspelled Reymond's name as REYMUND.
I know my teammates. They are the most detail oriented people I've seen. They could not have made a mistake on Reymond's spelling. It had to be the supplier -- someone I have no control over. Besides, Reymond is not a sponsor. His name was placed there merely as a tribute to a fallen teammate. It is actually very minor to most people. It's hardly noticeable and it's very easy to just overlook.
Except that it matters to me and to me alone. I don't have the right to complain. I can't even say anything except I'm hurt, I'm sad and I'm helpless.
(Photo by Paolo Valdez)
This is Reymond. This is the man my team is paying tribute to. How I wish I could take all the uniforms back and make them re-do it one by one. But I can't. So I will just put it here.
This is my husband. I hope people will not forget, or misspell or mistake him for anyone other than Reymond.
I have not stopped crying since noon yesterday. I'm so so tired already. My eyes are almost closing because they are so swollen. Please please make the tears stop. I can only take so much.
1 comment:
Some say writing is therapeutic. I can't say I know what you're going through, what I know is that you're strong. You are capable. The pain will always be there, we can only hope that it lessens in time. You are surrounded by people who love you & who think so highly of you. One step at a time, you can do this.. <3
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